Life at Signal.

It's been almost a month now since I've been in Wyoming. And I couldn't ask for any other place to be. I believe this veiw is the most beautiful sight I will even set my eyes upon. It's gorgeous.

My room is great, but cluttered as hell. I wouldn't have it any other way. Our room mate is awesome, they do a rad job here of living situations. I'm on the top bunk and there's this weird water pipe for the fire sprinkler system hanging down, kind of worries me now and then if I'm going to hit my head on it ever. But I haven't hit it hard yet, so I'm hoping for the best.

The people here are the most laid back, easy going people I've ever met. They don't have a care in the world. Nights consist of smoking, drink, and talking all too loudly out side the doors of dorms 2 and 3. Or playing guitar, singing, and drinking in the dorms. Basically every night is a good one.

The job isn't too bad, I haven't ran into any horrible rooms yet. Or any disgusting surprising left over for me.

Tomorrow I'm kayaking to the other side of the lake, it'll be glorious. But tonight we're going into town for the Rodeo. It's gonna be a hell of a time!

Michigan, Illinois, Iowa - done.

Well, we're on the road. We left the mitten last night, and so far we're in Iowa 50 miles away from Nebraska. Iowa isn't super exciting, but it isn't too bad either. There's a lot of grass, but the landscape is amazing! There is also an amazing tree here in Iowa, with a fantastic story behind it. Wonderful.

Tomorrow it's off to Nebraska!

In the mitten

Everything has been very crazy and hectic lately. I've been prepping and trying to pack for Wyoming. I can't wait for this change of scenery.

Right now I'm just trying to enjoy my last few days in the magical mitten I call home!

Since when did everything get so complicated?

Had a nice conversation with an extraordinary friend today. We chatted about life, and how extreme everything is. How crazy it is that such life changing events can happen in seconds. And how while we were sitting in a bench at subway someone could be making a crazy life changing decision that could in part, have a toll on me.

I can't come to grasp the fact the I've already been out of school for two years. And with in that short amount of time, I got a second job, and quit the first. I've swam through many social circles, never exactly finding my niche... only thinking so. I've had so many character building experiences in the last 6 months, I'm still trying to catch my breath.

I don't understand regrets, what's the point of wasting life away by consistently focusing on the past. Yes, everyone wants at least one do-over, but why beat yourself up over what you can't simply do-over?! Nothing is simple, not even buying a gallon of milk. You have to get into the car, drive to the store, walk to the cooler, open the door, turn around, go to the counter to pay, get back into the car, and drive home. There isn't a milk man. Basically my point is, if a simple task such as purchasing groceries isn't easy then why does anyone think anything else should be?

How can people move on with such ease, and just leave something behind? Something that at one time they thought they couldn't live without, couldn't bear the thought of ever seeing the sun again without having that familiar feeling of comfort. I don't get it! Would 1 2 3 4 5 be okay if 4 was missing? Would mankind just become comfortable to the thought of 1 2 3 5? I could never imagine so. But then again, at one time the smartest people in the world thought the earth was flat right?

I need to get out of here, everything is messing with my head. Someone give me vodka.

Possibly my last night with Rosta for a wee bit, heartbreaking.

My life has become work, sleep, television, rosta, applications, and juliette andre with a hint of jessica williams and a pinch of kayla buscemi. And I'm more then okay with that.

This post isn't going to become anything inspirational or whateve. But I'm rather excited for this year already. I mean, i'm not losing many hours at work, life isn't bad at all, and i'm probably moving to a whole new state in a whole new region soon!! I'll only be there for a few months but, gahhh!!! I want to happen, now! And everything just feels very relaxed and zen right now!

Well, my eyes are beginning to tire and hurt from staring at this screen, so i hope you have a wonderous night, morning, and evening!

Life as of now.

My life has become work, art, music, sleep, film, rosta, and juliette andre. For the most part, that's it. And i'm more than okay with that.

Life is full of loss. Whether the loss reigns from death or desire, it all must fall apart. But what I've come to cherish is the realization that until you are who you want to be, once you fall apart you can always build yourself up differently. Start from scratch, right? Exactly. Loss is one of the worst concepts to deal with in life. But with the loss of something, there is so much more to gain and to learn.

Life is an out of your control distaster. And at the tender age of 19, i'm tring to enjoy it. A disaster is what you personally make of it for yourself. You can run, hide, and live in a shelter until you think it's safe. Or, you can sit back, and enjoy the massive explosion of light.

Right now, I'm trying to invision the extravagent visuals in this magnificent light show.